Crawling along

I am beyond weary of selling this house and finding a new place to live. My children are in a stage of life that requires vast amounts of energy to parent, something I have in short supply. My pregnancy has turned the home stretch and I'm close to single-digit-week-countdown. We can't seem to sell our house and it is enigmatic. We can't seem to find a place to rent. I am existing in a season where my hopes are dashed at every turn. Every plan and direction we feel like God is taking us is thwarted for inexplicable reasons. I really struggle to describe the emotional roller coaster in a way that conveys the way I feel. I know it could be a whole lot worse, but that doesn't make me feel better. I'm positive I'm not at the bottom of the barrel, but that too, doesn't make me feel better.

These two things make me feel better.

"My hope is built on nothing less, than Jesus blood and righteousness."
God is with me and I am righteous before Him because of the blood of Christ. That's what He promised. He is not leaving me.

Isaiah 40:31 but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength;
they shall mount up with wings like eagles;
they shall run and not be weary;
they shall walk and not faint.

I'm not soaring with wings. I'm not running. Really I'm barely walking, but crawling. But God says he will renew my strength and I won't faint.

So for now, I just know that my real hope is in Jesus, God is with me, and He will renew my strength and help me put one foot in front of the other. Currently, that's all I can do.